My Head is Spinning Now

My head is spinning... so stress and uncertain of the future,

Will I get a job?
Will I have a break in my job?
What should I do to get a job?
How much am I suppose to prepare for a job?
What do I do with the portfolio?
Should I only prepare the stuff for portfolio? Like a Bag?
Or should I just do up like a website?

I DUNNO DUNNO DUNNO!!!

So help me God... I need guidance for this