Sad-list

alright so every time I worship lead something is sure going to go wrong and then I'll learn something new... cool? you bet.

so what I learn? you don't really have to crack your head to think of a wonderfull song list, how the songs connect and so on, those don't really interest people.. they'll just stare at you. right?

It is really about God, no matter how good you do, and if God is not the center of it all, you are a sore loser and I think yesterday I felt that way until at least the end of it. I know God is just there. so no matter how good your setlist are just aint gonna work if God is not invited.

So, more to technical side now... my sadlist.. Can't live a day / The Happy Song / The Freedom we Know / Dance in the River / Everything Glorious / How Great is Our God / Majesty.... sounds good? yesterday was those rare days that I don't play any instrument and sing, and someone say I am like CRAP... I sing like Crap.. well yea.. I admit, I do sing like crap...

But do I really care? I jumped like a mad man yesterday spinning and all.. Immature? you bet... plus there were visitors, guess they'll think of me as a small kid// Being a king of fools is really something hard to do. a fool is hard enough what more the KING OF FOOLS... I have decided that i'll be mad if I have to...

And to this youth group, only hillsong / united would work... the rest of the songs are just too weird and radical, which saddens me because we can't move away from hillsong and united.. I tried David Crowder, I tried Delirious and nothing seems to work... thank my team for the effort though, really thank you...

ok GTG sleep... just feeling real down and disappointed at things and people. really. what would happen in the next few months? only time can tell.. those that were once really closed have now just found something else to do, and they have move on to a better life, great. Things that are once in my control just decided to fall out of control, like the roller coaster, right great, challenge? I like challenge. BRING IT ON...

7 comments:

Anonymous said...

hi, God knows ur heart n how much u have give.. my frens in church previously they have VERY minimum financial worst than most of us that always shout poor but now when they work they able to save UP alot alot with good salary, i believe God is there. God Bless

jo

Anonymous said...

dude, i have felt like in the slump before too, if you remember the time i hid myself in the baby room, i think its because when you are really not right with God or you are too concentrated on the other stuff, there is when these things happen, dont be discouraged, but be encouraged that you can learn from this, and its not impossible to move away from united, do it slowly, baby steps, why move away in the 1st place? we are singing and praising God, its not about the song all.the time. think out of the box.

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angeliCassie said...

*splash* there cold water onto you....feeling better now?hehe sorry wasn't there to witness you jump about like a "small kid"...i was moody when i came up,cause i so wanted to be there worshipping...you know i was sitting down there in class,but i could hear you ppl up there worshipping,and i got so agitated,my heart,soul and spirit wants to fly to 5th floor straight away!all in all,i didn't know what songs you were singing,or whether the worship leader sang like CRAP,because i know God is THERE =)

and oh bro john,i always thought life is like a roller coaster,unexpected at every turn =p

:: J o h n :: said...

Hi Guys, thanks for the encouragement, really made my day... Thanks again... really good stuff you all wrote here...

Anonymous said...

hey. and yeah when people stare at us when we're up there, its just plain scary and discouraging, seriously... well, in MY opinion, you did great :D
you're still my role model and hey, PLEASE forgive me for all my wrongs...
wish i could be a better and more obedient tau dai.
p/s: ALOT of people enjoyed dancing before the Lord last saturday ;)
|you know who i am|

Anonymous said...

lol, yea see u got so much supporter ... haha...

jo