Rabbi, I got a question!

My job stuff is piling up. But I am all the more not in the mood to work. I just got back relaxing and as I pass the Toll, my stress seems increasing as I neared the office. As if the stress is not enough before, during and post breakfast.

Every camp I seemed to stepped on someone's toe before I left for home. Is it necessary? I don't know. Beneficial? I can't tell. But all I know is I got to do what I got to do. When your kids sick what you do? Let them take care of themselves? assuming they don't know how.

Thank God I did not get into accident... Well I almost did. I was driving and was concentrating and meditating on all my thoughts and suddenly I saw the rear of the lorry seems to be closer so I Jammed my brake, the car skidded a little, but manage to slow down before I clash with that Lorry.

Studies says that a lot of road accidents started because of arguments, fights, a lot which arguments as early as 6 hours before. All these are emotions playing back. Now my thoughts are different. I did not argue I did not fight, but I did some reflection on the whole process of my head. I don't know how to put it in words

Oh now I am confused because I seemed like stepped on someone's toe but does seems to put it in a right way but at the end I don't really know anymore what sets black away from white, what I should do and what's my status really? a mere friend? a teacher? a leader? a donkey?

Joleen's mission trip thrown me into other stuff like this. To have more time in my ministry its time to fix things. But yet, am I doing the right thing? Do I really have the rights to do it? What am I doing really? Seriously. mmmm don't look at me, I am totally as confuse as you are reading this blog. Like I said, time for a change... to what? I don't know how to? I don't know. I am totally puzzled I need a longer vacation. Can I?