My New Coat

You know ever since I saw Martin Smith and Delirious performed here in Malaysia... (No Doubt it was the best concert I've been to and became a fanboy ever since) What really struck me was that Martin looks gorgeous in that suit of his. It is like dude who wears them in Malaysia on stage with lights flashing on you? But then he stood out. So I guess suits wasn't just for CEOs




I love coats. Maybe I am that old to love coats. I know I know Baggy pants and jeans works for you!

And then in came Jars of Clay and their awesome coat studio photos and I really think that is awesome


But to make a coat cost like expensive so I put out that idea for a long time although I kept thinking about it until my gf kindly told me that she's going to buy me a coat for my birthday. I was like WHERT??? But of course am very happy because I can finally look like Martin Smith Cannot sing nvm but look can di

At 1st I was like ah cool then we went to SG Wang and custom make a coat for me. He made coats for my dad and I went and did this

Its Aaeger Mate in SG Wang same floor as the bombastic phone sellers

And then after some tryouts, 2 weeks later I got my first suit!


Tada! Erm it is in black...really one. But because I was playing with the flash and it turned out erm brown...


Nice ler putting my name on it so no one would steal it. Actually you steal also cannot fit in because I made it slim fit >.<


Due to low visibility, me tired after wedding (not mine) and horriblily stink, I look horrible on my face so I decided to cut it off and show this instead.

I know you all want to see my in my new coat and everyone's like saying so the only time we get to see it is when you get married? (haha no, I already got another coat in mind HAHA)

Well to be honest, I don't really know what I gonna use it for or when I gonna use it for because there are not many formal events and got also people still come in slippers so oh, I don't know lor.

Ok la I know you all not satisfied seeing me in that half cropped up coat of mine... I show you la how I look like in the awesome suit. But don't laugh ar...














HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA Za dou or not? so how? You think I got a chance to become the next bond? I super look like the poster can?

Childhood

From the left: Jeff Tan, Kay See, Jhan Goh, JoanneJoyce, Vinsie, Hensome

I miss my childhood friends. I have lost many childhood friends actually but these are the ones that were united (in 2004) after a long separation and some of us don't remember who is who coz they were like still babies when we're separated. Our last reunion was in 2004 minus hans, joel and joanne and my brother.

The next time we see each other all together will take quite some time as everyone is far from Malaysia now. Oh well don't really know when then. I lost all our baby pics T.T if any one of you read this blog and got them post it up facebook ya!

This friends of mine (or some to some extend I consider them extended family) do have a weird feelings towards it. In a sense we're not really super close (since we're separated for long) yet at the same time we seems to know each other and can talk and share with each other like we've known them for 50 years. I guess it is just something special (we're all PKs btw - the good ones)

How do we know each other? Our parents are best friends for centuries with each other that's how. So you can say that we knew each other even when we're inside our mom! Haha alright I guess this is totally weird for many of you reading this. ;)

Alicia's Birthday

Last week a few of us were invited to Alicia's surprise party... Haven't seen them since Christmas or some sort. We were invited to this buffet steamboat call tasty pot (which not that tasty IMHO) in Sunway. (no-pic)

We (HPA) were then asked to leave the place to hide in another corner giving her a double surprise after she was surprised by her friends. So we hid and hid and van call we went in but no kick coz she too overwhelmed already so she blurs.


While waiting I snap photos. Long time didn't see michelle too. Van very working lady look la.


Erm... ok whole night Joman bugged himself because of his assignment, Toefl the great crapper irritated him with ideas.


Tada! surprise.... yea a bit too happy about her birthday... lol


erm yes SOYA BEAN! which is weirder than porridge. But it is their specialty. hmmm IT IS HARD TO BOIL, TASTE WEIRD, PERIOD

This are some of the dishes. actually very normal la the dish there. I only manage to go one trip because it is really crazy small space and really cramp up inside. So I ate up other's food. But don't quite get to enjoy.


I hope I got their names correct. Sat with them, I think its Alicia's friend, high school, college, not too sure. A guy with same camera with me took this shot. I camwhored with him quite a bit but he did not send me any photos. Maybe if he does I'll post it up. We both liked beef.


Accidental shot but I look good haha


Well there aren't anything to shoot anymore and birthday girl was really busy so we had fun ourself and stuff ourself. We Didn't even get to talk to Alicia except for "can take photo or not?" Anyway notice that she changed her shirt? HAHA reason-unknown

Anyway here's a birthday song video ;)



see non-political John is back

Ugly faces

Alright so the other day Pastor Bernard wants to have makan and fellowship with some of the leaders and leaders to be in youth ministry, I invited the whole kampung but only few turn out.

How it went? I did not really take much pictures. So I shall post whatever that I took from that day's makan time. Many of this pictures are quite ugly because when you shoot with the smile shutter function and move immediately you'll get some interesting ugly results...



We had lou sang and that's about all the dinner picture I taken... then we head towards Swensen's in Parade and while waiting for our icecreams


I have not used the smile detect function for quite a while and we played with it.


Erm because of the light Nat looked kinda scary...


N/C


Look cute lah he


tongue shot


Like small kid lah! but any one with icecream will act like small kid


Very expensive oh... Rm50 if I am not wrong or more? I can't remember :(


everyone happy?


On the left is Pastor Bernard on the left is Pastor Peter which happen to look like my dad (sort of)



That's it for the night. I think my shots are all pretty dark and grainy... hmm... I still haven't made up my mind about sending my camera to warranty... hmm. most likely I will...

Alright I've updated quite a lot in a few hours.

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A different turn

Today saw a different turn in service. As stated in my previous post, I am sick and tired of coming to church with superficial attitude. Like coming in all pretend that we're alright. Maybe some are alright, but think hard and long what's the meaning of church.

Today we throw everything away. At the last minute (3 oclock) we threw it away and see where it leads us. I had this plan and idea since Friday to just get real and worship God with just voices and acoustic. I KIV as I felt it was too last minute to tell them. But I guess it is really God who plan all these. We started by Toefl asking everyone what do we expect coming?

Everyone gave their view but generally none gave solid answer because no one expect anything. So we started with worship songs and acoustic and everyone is geared in. We had altar calls and really prayed for one another which something that we ought to be doing. God was among us as we unite our hearts and cry out desperately.

After which we split into group and the college group shared a bit of their experience and we ended up worship with 2 more songs and a couple of prayer. All in all we broke the familiarities that we have been dragging to just fill in the 3 hour gap on a Saturday afternoon. We're charged and ready for another level of development!

At least I felt recharged and hyped up.!

Unbelievable

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I better find something to do... no but if I find something to do I'll blog about it... so how how how? I shall blog about the stars... ;)

shun shun shun

Woke up today and I so want to punch the wall for some for some flippin' reason.

I disregard negative words very quickly. I shove them aside when I come to one so that I don't get dragged down feeling low. Just pack it chuck it out the window or something. But some days, you can't run from it. I don't want to embrace it either...

Here I am, blogging about my feeling, as I have not blog much recently about my life, Like who cares to read about your life right? Just this once... Let me say, I am very disappointed, beaten down, face first on the ground.

Why am I so down? I don't know, just a bad week, gotten into arguments, fight here fight there. Friends > foes. Hmmm... Days when I feel like saying "Gong lei yao mm teng, teng zo lei yao mm meng, meng lei yao mm jou, jou ye yao jou cho, cho lei yao mm yeng, yeng lei yao mm fok, mmm fok lei yao mmm gong."

Oh so whatever. After all no ones need to be obligated to what I say. Right?

That's why I am still a man in need of a Saviour. How can you not look up to Jesus about forgiveness. What's more than forgiveness is absolute demonstration of grace. He knew that one of his people is going to betray him, Imagine the thoughts that would have run through his mind. What will run through your mind when you know someone is going to betray you? someone whom you PERSONALLY handpicked to become your apprentice. What would you do?

Even till the last minute, Even though Jesus might have known 2-3 years ago or maybe even when he started picking them, he knew that one of them is going to betray him. Yet till the very minute at the garden of Gethsemane...

"The one I kiss is the man, arrest him" Going at once to Jesus, Judas said, 'Greetings Rabbi!' and kissed him. Jesus replied "Friend what do you came for." (Matthew 26:47-50)

Isn't that amazing at how cool Jesus was? Of course he knew he was going to be taken away, That amazing love and grace. That forgiveness. That's why he is Jesus and we are human. I too want to learn from the best and do the same. Friend.

Ok. That's all I'll say, Going for a hair cut and press start again. ;)

Press Start

I always knew I am horrible in a video game. Having a "you lose", "game over" on the screen really ticks me off. I hate it when I get a "you lose" mostly in street fighter kinda game but what can I do? I am horrible at it anyway.

When you get a "you lose" you get really frustrated. What if you get that "you lose" in life? being a failure in something you've done, being a horrible life player, just get beaten down, face first to the ground. Do you just lay down there... or press start?

I wish life could be reset. Press start all the time. I wish I can "CTRL+ALT+Z" on my life all the time.

How many times do I need to press start to pass this level? Only God knows.

Positivity

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Yi Ling Ling Fatt

Blessed new year there. Since it is no more Christmas, I think a change of layout is needed. And if you notice at the side there is this 366@2008. It is actually my new project-to take a picture a day for the rest of the year. You can go check it out.

As usual, I spent my eve in church for the 23rd time. This year was alright as usual, The hype has gone down for sure, Testimony time just got interesting with those Indon and Nepali kept going on stage to pull out a special performance.

Again and again, we never once hit accurately on midnight, some say that we started 4 minutes earlier. The church clock was on time, But the chairperson was funny. He was just like

"What time is it now?"

"It is time already"

"okay... so we start from 10, we start from 10 la hor"

"10... 9... 8..."

I go hmm... aren't we suppose to follow the clock? suka suka count down starting from 10 Hah!

We ate as usual, Then some of us went and have a sleepover which none do the sleeping. But all playing billionaire and monopoly. I won't for the 1st time in monopoly (good start of the year. mannikam mannikam) with more than 54k of cash.

Well anyways, Happy New Year! ;)

Plastic People

"The performance is convincing
And we know every line by heart
Only when no one is watching
Can we really fall apart"

This was written by casting crown. One of the few band which I had hard time listening to because it is just true to deny. But the question remains (after long reminders) Are we doing church? What is church? What are Christians? Sometimes it feels as if the non-believers have better character than church. Can we tolerate that?

Who are we fooling? where's the genuine character of Christian gone to? We are sometimes too caught up with getting the church beautiful, doing this perfectly well. These chairs have to be comfortable. We need this, we need that. It is as if we're faking it all too well, when met with new visitors we give them coffee and cake. After that is another story.

An analyze of the bible shows that church sometimes is that way too. People comparing who can speak in tongues the loudest. Who can perform miracles who can't. But Apostle Paul always put things back into perspectives by following CHRIST. Enough of felony. If things aren't well, don't pretend nothings happened. Be real.

Recently I walked into a Christian bookstore and look at some book. They have interesting titles. But one book caught my attention. 10 lies that the church tells the woman. I am sure you seen similar books like this. To me it is really a conflict. Think about it. if your friend got saved 2 hours ago, would you give this book? "Hey it is great you got save. I really think you should read this to avoid being tell a lie" Books like this should never exist. They exist because maybe it is a real situation. And if it is, It is really sad. What we have become?

A recent podcast hears Tim Hughes being interviewed about worship of course. and one remark is made was important to recognize. He says sure we have better equipments and things like that, the musician is very skillful and professional. But he is afraid that the element of being led by the spirit is dying off. Going place never gone before.

So are we challenging our own and keep our faith intact, our vision clear or are we becoming legos?

Are we happy plastic people
Under shiny plastic steeples
With walls around our weakness
And smiles to hide our pain

Being 23rd

Ah. it is that time of the year where you deny your age. NO. This year has been the quietest ever birthday. I plan to have it that way. Don't ask me why.

The day started with I dunno when my birthday really start. Maybe it started when Joleen gave me my birthday gift. I knew the guys are coming over. In fact I got used to them coming over that I actually sticked a paper on my gate written "Thankx" turns out they weren't coming to surprise but come here party. Not bad for a party. They gave me 5 hotwheels. Not bad. limited hard to find stuffs.

After that, they went away and it is quiet again. I kept level my pets in facebook for that night. Since it was a special meeting over a new renovated sanctuary, that helps by getting much attention off me. Love it actually. But still the closer ones of course they remembered.

Nothing much happened on my birthday. Joleen fell ill coz of food poisoning, the service ended super late, by the time we're done lunch it is already 3+ so I stayed home, Jo came over and watched a few jap drama. And me family were off to SHOGUN for sushi. BOY. I stuffed all I can. But some people don't really know how to Jap buffet. They were taking mushroom soup. Boy in no time they'll be stuffed. Haha.

After that I came home and just stoned through the night. And yeah! that's my birthday. Nothing much happen eh? Didn't even had a cake. HEHE.

And I shall sign off with this 2 pictures I took from the circus. No Comments.

Fatherless

These days I am very occupied with the stuffs that I do. Clients at work place kept pouring in. Job piling up. Doing freelance is a challenge for me. And yes I am doing a freelance for a friend. And I started coming up with weird ideas and started coding myself. And I don't want to just random post or just daily musing = no post.

Many have been in my position for the past one month. Fatherless. It is still an phenomena to me. My dad did 'disappear' like that before once when I was small. He went to the states for some training. I was young and therefore don't really know much. Time has change and now I have grown. This time my dad went for holiday in Canada for almost 25 days.

How this is different was that I have to do most of the house chores since my mom is busy working hard out there and my bro just parasites at home. The amount of stuff to do is really mind boggling. And it is tougher now because I have to remember so many things (though it is not really a lot) And I finally thank God all these will probably end soon. And I'd learn something.

See for those of you who aren't familiar with my family is that my dad usually stays at home and do all the chores. In a sense he has become the housewife. Because of his job profession as a itenary(freelance) Pastor. He has got a lot of free time on his weekdays. Way to go DAD.

And my sincere apology if I haven't come to your blog. I promise I'll drop by soon. Well after I finish the websites and my own ideas that is :)

103 Songs

Sometimes I get the feeling that I just don't want to hear any music because I'm sick of it! Today is clearly not that day. I have the oddest perhaps unusual day today. It brings surprises to me.

Today I must have woken on the wrong side of the bed. I got into this mood of listening to songs. Many songs. I put my iPod to shuffle Mode (which no doubt is the best function since you have no idea what comes next) and just blast away, stopping for lunch and sorts and I played up to 100 songs. 97 on my earphone 3 in my car. That's just insane dude.

Over the process I spend almost 8 hours on iPod and basically ran through Every single album on my ipod, Listening to 1/6 of the songs I had on the iPod. And most of it is from d: and Hills. I think I heard every single version of obsession. Yes IT CAN DRIVE YOU OBSESS *there were more than 4 obsession on my iPod.

Drove myself to ikea, bought some stuff a shelf for myself and a chair for my home, and decided then to eat cheap food after that. Of all place I go to ENS today. I bumped into my high school best mates which I lost touch after few hundred days. They didn't even invite me. HOR! Well most of them also not my class and not my circle of friends. They are like Chen Fei's circle of friends. S.U nontheless. Alot of them changed from fat to thin thin to fat etc. and erm YEE YEE still remember my nick name! my GOSH!

Well great chance to catch up. I found out that 3 of them actually work in Puchong. huh? LOL =) But I didn't talk much as usual. Alrighty, Bye.

Like my new header? something for a change. The jpg quality not good but its there la somehow. Someone kind enough to donate me a digi cam? Or what can I do for you? Work for you clean your car with just (minimum RM1) donation? This will go to my Camera fund. Let me know ya?

Greed and Gambling

I made a short visit to the arcade (following my cousins) whilst in Singapore. Well they had nothing to do anyway. The arcade are really tinily small. Small enough to get to any machines you'd have to rub against someone. There's only a handful of machines available.

But what drew my attention was those mini casino machines (not horse racing) But the machine in Genting & Mr. Bean's series where you put the coins in and hope it returns you with more coins? In other word, SLOT MACHINES (some form of it).

They have 2 machines. Major ones. Both available here. One is the one I just mention - the coin machine but instead of the coins they replaced them with Mentos. and among the Mentos there is a small kitten plushie, if you manage to push it down you'll get a nice Disney bear bear instead of just getting a whole KG of fresh mints.

The other machine is a little more interesting. It is like a forklift. And like slot machines once you hit a positive number it'll move up to whatever number was shown and a negative number otherwise. If you get 5 or more positive numbers the whole thing will tumble backwards and you'll get the prize. Here the prize was like hmm cheap bears, there is a little more enticing. They give away Handphones and PSPs and iPods. New ones.

And I really saw a lot of kids making their way and changing lots of dollar to play it. I too getting distracted and tempted, I changed some tokens and start playing them. But don't get me wrong, my intention is all in the name of science (YEAH RIGHT). I immediately quit after 2 rounds. I can because I can control it and I know the cunningness of the machines.

The bottom line is the machine lies to you by giving you false hope. It gives you a sense of you're winning a few more tries you'll get it. The truth is, The shop owner will never put expansive stuff if they know they don't earn from it. Well this is how they cheat. The 1st time you hit, you'll always get a postive number, the next well you're right, it'll be a negative number and yea it goes up up up.. DOWN up up up again, DOWN. That's how it cheat. Very simple program.

In short programming language = If lift>3 gotoandgive negative else go positive.

I gave up. =) after spending about $4. Well there is temptation for me to play some more since I am almost getting it. so close. As do every gambler always say. I have sinned that moment, yet I learn. It is not easy to control greed once you started it. I rest the case.

On the other hand my cousin's cousin took home 4 bear bear. She played the Mentos machine. She is kinda smart is finding alternative ways to leap a few steps ahead. In the end she got 4 bears. The workers can't stop replenish the bears. She used up $50 and walked away with 4. Me? I would rather buy from the shops. Faster and maybe cheaper?

Buy after I witness the kids playing, played myself, and watch the same kid probably wasted $10 or so on the machine, I was just thinking to myself, how many people suffered because of poverty and because they want some quick buck. And I kept repeating to myself,

It is better to live in the reality.

The word of God says. you don't work, you don't eat. Reality check.

indulgence on the thirty first

I love rum and raisins. No doubt about it.

I queued up for 45 minutes just so they'll call No.166.

I am currently having minor cough and sore throat.

I can't resist the temptation of 31% discount.

I think without it BR will die.

I don't have much money

I still love Rum & Raisins!

Hey Joe!

I went for a musical play today. A musical play by Sri Sempurna, Stephanie's school. Since she said she is singing in the choir, I'm very interested because she's involve in something and it is always worth going to when people you know are involve in good activities.

The musical took me by surprise really. As usual I did not expect much (this is when good things looks gooder) Jonah have always been a fascinating story to me, Probably the most memorable the most drilled into my head since I was a kid. That's because my dad always have been telling it to me, Yes, he did tell other stories, but this one was exceptional. It was rather interactive, when he got to the part where the fish threw Jonah out, he would always take the blanket, put me in it and swing a bit and threw me out onto the bed. And it has been told many many times.

So the same is with this musical play and not much to be said because I can't describe how awesomely goody good it was. The main actor was really really really crazy actor. And boy he can be in comedy act.

Stephs' choir team is also crazy. Not to mention they are bunch of talented singing kids. Very very nice job guys. After some meeting and shooting photo and meeting some hot guy friends of Felicia we went to makan with the family. Me and joe were really fed.

I had the weirdest fashion today. Joe gave me his coat because he could no longer fit. And boy that coat really make me look odd and weird but they say it is nice. Because I wore it with jeans and converse, but it looked like Reuben Morgan kinda dress. Nice!

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hot guys- (noun) - Handsome
(verb) - appear to be sweating at the time of mention of 'hot'

Hahahahahaha

big Z syndrome

Drumming is like skateboarding. The tricks are really hard to accomplish, unbelievable practice sessions and yet still impossible to accomplish. Some are better at skating different tricks. Sure there is no physical involvement, not frontside boardslide kickflip out, or heelflip 360 or whatever else trick you could think of, but drumming is... the same.

Roll it uh huh and bang. Opps you missed it again John... LOSER! ah that kind of thing keeps coming up. I am bad enough on the board and it is the same with the drum. I know how big Z felt at this point of time. Go watch surf's up if you want to know what I meant.

All I can blame is I bought too many stuff and pay too many camps this month that I did not have any left for a new leather shoe. The current one has no grip, slippery inside and basically loose and torn. That's what I'll blame.

But today I got a little surprise. I got like parcel from the UK it is D: stuff of course. Wee Ling's dad went there and took it back. I mean so happen he was there. Great~~ Someone took the book though... Thanks friend!

If you reading this, Please sign up for camp... I need you to do it. Thanks

A lil something something

Well. I didn't realise that my header was gone for a few days. See I don't even have time to look at my blog so sorry if I didn't manage to stop by yours. Gomennasai.

So what to do when your header is like gone? Make a new one. HEHE. Well this is what I wanted anyway, updating new header like every month. So, here it is. Since many of you didn't have the opportunity to see Bali (Not that I show you my pics) I'll post some of the best shots that I've taken. Many of which was shocking to me as well.

This pic wasn't taken in a well lighted situation, but I didn't want to miss the opportunity to take a snap at her. What she's playing is actually like mud beside the beach. The water that she's on, came from a big drain I spose was from either the city or the mountain area and its flowing into the ocean. It is one of the dirtiest beach in where she played on. Yet as young as she is, She seems to be fascinated by the ps3, xbox, cheap cellphones mud.

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I finally finished Chin Hoe's website, after a struggling time of PHP and CSS until I mad, plus I wasn't really free this entire few months. Just go over to www.magicgarage.org

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I bought really a lot of stuff this month and I am totally broke, because I just pay back church camp which they did gave me a hundred rebate because of my last minute action and really late payment etc... So long story short, I got extra RM100 to shop save

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I bought a few neon tetras and 2 orange fish for my tank and boy I regretted immediately. I wish I would stick to my poor little John who don't mind being alone and sad. Now I am getting dizzy over few steroided high fish who won't stop to breathe! UH... poor John. He don't like company. I am sorry.

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Title

Life is going downhill for me. what is life? what is happiness? what am I doing here? What am I? Maybe I should dig out my purpose driven life.

Ironically my little fish caught my attention now, The one I called John. Remember how I said he was pretty boring fish and always stay stagnant? apparently it is not so while I am writing this. It grew restless and kept finding for ways to escape out of the tank, banging at every corner. For a few minutes now.

I am probably in a situation like that, trying to break free but there isn't a hole for me to break free. I am stuck in a tank. Working either this or that. I got no life once I finish working because work awaits me at home. Magic Garage isn't all the while finish. It is probably going to be done. But yet.

I need to get out of here. Get a life. Do something, get a break. I haven't make up my mind yet. But I probably will. In office, I am beginning to catch up all the back logs and possibly over taking them. But, there is still jobs coming in. Which is a good thing I suppose. Work gets tougher. I becoming someone I do not want to be, someone I don't like to be...

don't like to be